So I got rid of facebook to focus more on myself. With that, I've been looking at things to do in Austin because I feel like even though I've lived here for almost five years, I still haven't seen anything of the city.
Low and behold, I found my website. Now I'm making it a goal that when this show is over at the theatre, I will go to this website everyday and pick a place to go to. I want to experience something new everyday! And here in Austin, you can do that.
www.livingsocial.com
Check out what's around your city!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Not Feeling It
Something weird happened today... The day started off at theatre rehearsal where I just felt overwhelmingly sad. Then I got home and was okay for a bit and once the night hit I started to cry for no reason. I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Maybe it's because I have been so locked up in my house more than I'm used to. Maybe being unsocial makes me sad. But then I think about it, and I haven't been indoors ALL the time. I've seen a couple friends here and there. There has to be something else. Maybe if I just go to bed now I'll wake up to a bright, cheery morning.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
It's Almost Here
Graduation is in three months and I can almost taste it. I was talking to a friend of mine last night and I said "What am I going to do when I graduate?" I'm so used to having the summer off and then getting ready to go back to class in the fall. Now, I don't have to worry about that. Instead, I have to worry about what I'm going to do with my life! I'm so excited but so nervous.
I've made the decision to stay in Austin. I think there's more opportunity for me in film here rather than Los Angeles. I want to be a big fish in a small pond. I know staying here will give me good experience and help build up my resume.
Another thing to look forward to: My girl Emily is moving to Austin to work in film as well. We're going to live together which I'm so stoked for. It'll be good to have someone there who wants to do exactly the same thing as me. I really hope we can help each other succeed.
I've made the decision to stay in Austin. I think there's more opportunity for me in film here rather than Los Angeles. I want to be a big fish in a small pond. I know staying here will give me good experience and help build up my resume.
Another thing to look forward to: My girl Emily is moving to Austin to work in film as well. We're going to live together which I'm so stoked for. It'll be good to have someone there who wants to do exactly the same thing as me. I really hope we can help each other succeed.
Friday, February 4, 2011
From Ten to One
Funny how I can be so entirely happy one moment and then sobbing like a widow the next. Here I am, enjoying the snow by myself, running around the empty streets like a child, catching snowflakes on my tongue. I felt so amazing! I made snow balls and threw them in the air and at columns just to see them break. People probably thought I was a lunatic, seeing a girl throwing snow and jumping around in circles looking at the footsteps she left behind her, running from one side of the apartment complex to the other side. But I didn't care. It was such a simple joy that I wanted to take it all in.
Then I finished watching a movie and before I wanted to head to bed I made the dumb decision of looking at the ex's profile and he had changed his picture to him and his new girlfriend. It was one of those photo booth pictures with the multiple pictures on a roll. Seeing him smile that same smile when he was with me and kissing her just broke my heart. I miss him so much and now I'm becoming that girl I don't want to be. A pathetic, sobbing girl who feels she'll never be good enough. What a shame it is to go from such a high to such a low. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm going to leave the blinds open so I can fall asleep to the vision of snow. Maybe it will bring back some good spirit.
Then I finished watching a movie and before I wanted to head to bed I made the dumb decision of looking at the ex's profile and he had changed his picture to him and his new girlfriend. It was one of those photo booth pictures with the multiple pictures on a roll. Seeing him smile that same smile when he was with me and kissing her just broke my heart. I miss him so much and now I'm becoming that girl I don't want to be. A pathetic, sobbing girl who feels she'll never be good enough. What a shame it is to go from such a high to such a low. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm going to leave the blinds open so I can fall asleep to the vision of snow. Maybe it will bring back some good spirit.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Oh Dear... I Will Never Understand Men
I realize I just wrote an entry a couple minutes ago but I saw something on facebook right as I was about to go to bed that kind of shook me.
As I wrote back in November, I thought I found a guy that was great. We saw each other every day and were always joined at the hip in the spare times we had available outside of work or classes, in my case. I brought it up at the very beginning that I travel a lot and that this has always been a problem with the guys I date. His response, "No biggie. We'll see what happens when we get there." Long story short, it got there. He started retreating and broke it off with me.
Come to find out he met another girl while I was gone. I found this out for myself and had a feeling this was the real reason he broke up with me, not because of distance. People can work through busy schedules and I thought he was one of them. After taking him off of facebook (yes this sounds so high school but it's our society today) I thought I would randomly see if I could check up on his profile before I went to bed. Low and behold... a new girlfriend. I know we weren't together for too long but I haven't been with someone seriously in 4 years, so for me I wanted it to work. This was a guy I really fell for and wanted to commit to. It sucks to think that feeling is reciprocated but can so easily be thrown away.
It's times like this that I don't feel good enough and then I just have to slap myself in the face and tell myself to stop talking nonsense. But how do you stop the feeling of numbness?
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose."
-Henry Ward Beecher
"The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder."
-Virginia Woolf
As I wrote back in November, I thought I found a guy that was great. We saw each other every day and were always joined at the hip in the spare times we had available outside of work or classes, in my case. I brought it up at the very beginning that I travel a lot and that this has always been a problem with the guys I date. His response, "No biggie. We'll see what happens when we get there." Long story short, it got there. He started retreating and broke it off with me.
Come to find out he met another girl while I was gone. I found this out for myself and had a feeling this was the real reason he broke up with me, not because of distance. People can work through busy schedules and I thought he was one of them. After taking him off of facebook (yes this sounds so high school but it's our society today) I thought I would randomly see if I could check up on his profile before I went to bed. Low and behold... a new girlfriend. I know we weren't together for too long but I haven't been with someone seriously in 4 years, so for me I wanted it to work. This was a guy I really fell for and wanted to commit to. It sucks to think that feeling is reciprocated but can so easily be thrown away.
It's times like this that I don't feel good enough and then I just have to slap myself in the face and tell myself to stop talking nonsense. But how do you stop the feeling of numbness?
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose."
-Henry Ward Beecher
"The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder."
-Virginia Woolf
Oh Dear...
Last time I wrote on here was a good month ago... When things get hectic I tend to get lazy. This is a habit that needs to stop.
So I wrote in some entries about Los Angeles but decided to keep those to myself and not post them. And now that it is a new year, I think it is time to have new beginnings... like with this blog!
For a start, I was able to celebrate New Years for the first time in my 23 years of life with friends outside of Colombia. It was absolutely wonderful (minus the horrible cold I had)! After celebrating with three of my girlfriends in New Orleans, my best friend Leslie and I went to visit a plantation home that resides between New Orleans and Baton Rouge. We learned it was built in the 1800s and hearing how this family lived fascinated me. Doesn't everyone just wish that we could somehow jump back into a time to see how people just like us lived? What was it like having to use candles at night? And how much would that cost having to constantly buy new candles so one could see? How did people socially interact? What were the games children would play to keep them occupied during the day? I wish so much I could jump back in time! That's why in going to this plantation home, I tried to take everything in and even bought a little souvenir called a courting candle.
Courting candle: When a suitor would court a lady, the father of the lady would light the candle. The metal holder allowed the candle stick to be raised or lowered. Once the candle was lit and the wax began to melt to the top of the holder, that meant it was time for the suitor to leave. The great and comical thing about this was that the dad had all the power because he controlled how high or low the candle would be. The higher it was raised meant he thought the man showed promise (and was probably rich), therefore the man could stay longer. If the father thought he wasn't right for his daughter, the candle was lower meaning the candle would burn down faster to the holder. Clever men.
Things like this always delight me! Here's a picture of what it looks like:
Well it is very late and I am exhausted. I will really try to keep writing entries, no matter how little, boring, stupid or fascinating they are :)
So I wrote in some entries about Los Angeles but decided to keep those to myself and not post them. And now that it is a new year, I think it is time to have new beginnings... like with this blog!
For a start, I was able to celebrate New Years for the first time in my 23 years of life with friends outside of Colombia. It was absolutely wonderful (minus the horrible cold I had)! After celebrating with three of my girlfriends in New Orleans, my best friend Leslie and I went to visit a plantation home that resides between New Orleans and Baton Rouge. We learned it was built in the 1800s and hearing how this family lived fascinated me. Doesn't everyone just wish that we could somehow jump back into a time to see how people just like us lived? What was it like having to use candles at night? And how much would that cost having to constantly buy new candles so one could see? How did people socially interact? What were the games children would play to keep them occupied during the day? I wish so much I could jump back in time! That's why in going to this plantation home, I tried to take everything in and even bought a little souvenir called a courting candle.
Courting candle: When a suitor would court a lady, the father of the lady would light the candle. The metal holder allowed the candle stick to be raised or lowered. Once the candle was lit and the wax began to melt to the top of the holder, that meant it was time for the suitor to leave. The great and comical thing about this was that the dad had all the power because he controlled how high or low the candle would be. The higher it was raised meant he thought the man showed promise (and was probably rich), therefore the man could stay longer. If the father thought he wasn't right for his daughter, the candle was lower meaning the candle would burn down faster to the holder. Clever men.
Things like this always delight me! Here's a picture of what it looks like:
Well it is very late and I am exhausted. I will really try to keep writing entries, no matter how little, boring, stupid or fascinating they are :)
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Hello LA
I cannot begin to explain how much I am loving LA. I guess I should start at the beginning...
After rushing to do some last minute laundry in Austin, I made my flight to LA. When I landed my friends picked me up and I got ready in about thirty minutes at my friend's house. I walk outside and there is this huge tour bus in front of the house. This bus is amazing. It has lights, tv screens and they even brought the cutest dog along. I met everyone on the bus and found out they rode this thing from Austin to LA.
After missing the exit a few times, we made it to Supper Club. When we were getting off the bus, we saw Russell Brand leaving and getting into his car right next to us and then literally two seconds after the car drove off, Corey Feldman walks by. Walking inside was crazy. It was like a huge warehouse in white and they had people dressed up in crazy costumes. People were coming out of the ceilings and there were midgets dressed in christmas lights dancing with people in the crowd. It was definitely a sight to see. After this, we all got back into the bus and headed to a smaller place called Voyeur. Walking in, their dancers were all topless and in tutus... It sounds weird but it was actually pretty cool. In the middle of the night they put on a little show on the stage. Throughout the night, we noticed on top of the crowd there was a large net spread across the ceiling with a girl up there. It was just insane... Girls on the ceiling, on the stage, on the bar, in a glass box... and all topless. Of course I was the only one sober but by the end of the night I thought I would let loose a little bit and got on the stage with some of the girls we were with. When they turned the lights on it was time to go and as we were walking out I looked at the guy next to me and it was that Frankie guy from Laguna Beach... Really cute in person actually... We got on the bus and I think 90% of the people on there were wasted and dancing their hearts out. I had a blast.
When we got back to the house my girlfriend Lacy and I ran to claim a bed. We shared the bed with a girl Lorena and as we were falling asleep our friend came in and got in the bed with us because poor homeboy had a girl trailing him all night. She found him and ended up in the bed too... I don't know how that worked.
So that was just Thursday night...
Friday I woke up and hung out with the boys at home. I read for a bit and then my friend's roommate Richard drove me to my friend's dance studio. It was really nice of him since I was going to take a Taxi instead. That saved me a good 20 bucks. So I met up with my friend Jared and he took me to Santa Monica where we had some really great Mexican food. I had just seen him a week or two before in Austin when he was in town for the Salsa Congress but he promised me that on Sunday he would take me out dancing here in LA. (I'm so excited :)) He was nice enough to drive me back to the house where I passed out for a good two hours. When I got up some new girls arrived from Austin and we all got ready for another night out. I was actually contemplating staying in and watching a movie or something but I'm glad I got my butt up and ready.
We drove to the hotel where everyone was staying at (the people from the bus). What was once like 13 people ended up being like 20 or something. There were so many people. We all loaded onto the bus and headed to a small bar/club. At first I wasn't having the best time but I started chatting with the girls who had just come in from Austin and we really bonded. One of the girls was freaking out because she had seen this actor that she knew from "Grey's Anatomy" and she thought he was so cute. Somehow she made friends with his best friend and he came over and hung out with us. She was in heaven! I was able to talk to him about acting since I told him that's what I wanted to come down to LA for. He gave me some good advice even though I think he had a lot to drink.
So the night was over and we all got back onto the bus again. A group of us hung out in the back where the bed was and just chatted and laughed. We hadn't noticed the bus had stopped until someone came up to the back and told us we were back at the hotel... Then someone mentioned Andy Dick was on the bus and we all thought, yeah right... but he was on bus. It was the most random experience. He just came in with two of his really handsome friends and hung out. Then he came up to the suite with us. They were all really cool but still now I can't get over how random that was. I left about an hour afterwards back to the house where I passed out.
It's now Saturday and I have taken all day to relax, watch some football, paint my nails, eat some cereal, chat with the girls about their night with the Grey's Anatomy actor (which will remain nameless unless you want to know), and we even planned a trip to go to Vegas for a weekend with him and his friend. I think tonight should be really good. We're celebrating my friend Jejuan's birthday at Chateau Marmont on Sunset. I cannot wait!! I came to LA for this night specifically so hopefully tonight will live up with more unexpected moments and good memories :)
xoxo
After rushing to do some last minute laundry in Austin, I made my flight to LA. When I landed my friends picked me up and I got ready in about thirty minutes at my friend's house. I walk outside and there is this huge tour bus in front of the house. This bus is amazing. It has lights, tv screens and they even brought the cutest dog along. I met everyone on the bus and found out they rode this thing from Austin to LA.
After missing the exit a few times, we made it to Supper Club. When we were getting off the bus, we saw Russell Brand leaving and getting into his car right next to us and then literally two seconds after the car drove off, Corey Feldman walks by. Walking inside was crazy. It was like a huge warehouse in white and they had people dressed up in crazy costumes. People were coming out of the ceilings and there were midgets dressed in christmas lights dancing with people in the crowd. It was definitely a sight to see. After this, we all got back into the bus and headed to a smaller place called Voyeur. Walking in, their dancers were all topless and in tutus... It sounds weird but it was actually pretty cool. In the middle of the night they put on a little show on the stage. Throughout the night, we noticed on top of the crowd there was a large net spread across the ceiling with a girl up there. It was just insane... Girls on the ceiling, on the stage, on the bar, in a glass box... and all topless. Of course I was the only one sober but by the end of the night I thought I would let loose a little bit and got on the stage with some of the girls we were with. When they turned the lights on it was time to go and as we were walking out I looked at the guy next to me and it was that Frankie guy from Laguna Beach... Really cute in person actually... We got on the bus and I think 90% of the people on there were wasted and dancing their hearts out. I had a blast.
When we got back to the house my girlfriend Lacy and I ran to claim a bed. We shared the bed with a girl Lorena and as we were falling asleep our friend came in and got in the bed with us because poor homeboy had a girl trailing him all night. She found him and ended up in the bed too... I don't know how that worked.
So that was just Thursday night...
Friday I woke up and hung out with the boys at home. I read for a bit and then my friend's roommate Richard drove me to my friend's dance studio. It was really nice of him since I was going to take a Taxi instead. That saved me a good 20 bucks. So I met up with my friend Jared and he took me to Santa Monica where we had some really great Mexican food. I had just seen him a week or two before in Austin when he was in town for the Salsa Congress but he promised me that on Sunday he would take me out dancing here in LA. (I'm so excited :)) He was nice enough to drive me back to the house where I passed out for a good two hours. When I got up some new girls arrived from Austin and we all got ready for another night out. I was actually contemplating staying in and watching a movie or something but I'm glad I got my butt up and ready.
We drove to the hotel where everyone was staying at (the people from the bus). What was once like 13 people ended up being like 20 or something. There were so many people. We all loaded onto the bus and headed to a small bar/club. At first I wasn't having the best time but I started chatting with the girls who had just come in from Austin and we really bonded. One of the girls was freaking out because she had seen this actor that she knew from "Grey's Anatomy" and she thought he was so cute. Somehow she made friends with his best friend and he came over and hung out with us. She was in heaven! I was able to talk to him about acting since I told him that's what I wanted to come down to LA for. He gave me some good advice even though I think he had a lot to drink.
So the night was over and we all got back onto the bus again. A group of us hung out in the back where the bed was and just chatted and laughed. We hadn't noticed the bus had stopped until someone came up to the back and told us we were back at the hotel... Then someone mentioned Andy Dick was on the bus and we all thought, yeah right... but he was on bus. It was the most random experience. He just came in with two of his really handsome friends and hung out. Then he came up to the suite with us. They were all really cool but still now I can't get over how random that was. I left about an hour afterwards back to the house where I passed out.
It's now Saturday and I have taken all day to relax, watch some football, paint my nails, eat some cereal, chat with the girls about their night with the Grey's Anatomy actor (which will remain nameless unless you want to know), and we even planned a trip to go to Vegas for a weekend with him and his friend. I think tonight should be really good. We're celebrating my friend Jejuan's birthday at Chateau Marmont on Sunset. I cannot wait!! I came to LA for this night specifically so hopefully tonight will live up with more unexpected moments and good memories :)
xoxo
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Home Sweet Home
Just got into Austin. I haven't written anything over Thanksgiving break probably because I've been sitting on my ass watching Weeds on Netflix. I'm addicted. Something crazy always happens every episode. And even though I reeeeaaaally want to watch another episode, I need to write a paper for class. This will probably take me all morning but I'm such a pro at procrastinating. I got this. I think I'm even more fueled up to write or do something now since my dad and I got into an argument (what's new). I will kick this paper's ass. Goodnight world
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
All I Can Say Is...
Wow. I am one lucky girl. I don't want to say anything because I'm afraid I'll jinx a good thing but really... I got lucky.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Smiling From Ear to Beyond
What a great feeling to make someone happy and have them make you happy in return. Now that the nerves and butterflies are gone, I think my waiting might finally be over... Let's hope so. I caught a good one :)
Saturday, November 20, 2010
To E
Before I go to bed tonight, I just want to write a little message to someone very special to me.
I love you.
You are beautiful.
Men are pigs.
You are beautiful.
Always take it one second after another because once you know it, a minute has passed.
Don't strive for right or wrong,
All your wrongs will turn into a right.
I love you.
Don't let hurt consume you.
There's a phone next to you with my number in it.
God you're beautiful.
You're light shines through that beautiful smile.
Don't put yourself down.
Because I love you.
God loves you.
The Universe loves you.
If you weren't here in my life, I would have a gaping hole. When you wake up and before you go to bed, think of all the love you have going your way. You truly are a special and wonderful human being. I love you E.
I love you.
You are beautiful.
Men are pigs.
You are beautiful.
Always take it one second after another because once you know it, a minute has passed.
Don't strive for right or wrong,
All your wrongs will turn into a right.
I love you.
Don't let hurt consume you.
There's a phone next to you with my number in it.
God you're beautiful.
You're light shines through that beautiful smile.
Don't put yourself down.
Because I love you.
God loves you.
The Universe loves you.
If you weren't here in my life, I would have a gaping hole. When you wake up and before you go to bed, think of all the love you have going your way. You truly are a special and wonderful human being. I love you E.
Friday, November 19, 2010
15 Things
15 Things I Hope to Do in the Next 5 Years:
1. Land a role in a movie
2. Dance tango in Argentina
3. Zip-line in Costa Rica
4. Get plans running for a 1950s themed restaurant
5. Visit Australia and see a koala
6. Learn to sew
7. Read more plays
8. Sit and watch the sun set
9. Go scuba diving
10. Enjoy a night at the symphony
11. Go on a hot-air balloon ride
12. Go camping for a week
13. Visit Egypt and see the pyramids
14. Swim with dolphins
15. Go on a road trip through the South
There are probably more things I want to do but for now this is a satisfying list :)
1. Land a role in a movie
2. Dance tango in Argentina
3. Zip-line in Costa Rica
4. Get plans running for a 1950s themed restaurant
5. Visit Australia and see a koala
6. Learn to sew
7. Read more plays
8. Sit and watch the sun set
9. Go scuba diving
10. Enjoy a night at the symphony
11. Go on a hot-air balloon ride
12. Go camping for a week
13. Visit Egypt and see the pyramids
14. Swim with dolphins
15. Go on a road trip through the South
There are probably more things I want to do but for now this is a satisfying list :)
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Another Happy Birthday
As my friend pointed out to me today, on this day in 1985 the first Calvin and Hobbes comic strip was published. I remember the first time seeing these strips of comedic genius. I was in Paris with my mom visiting her brother and I was deathly bored. As a small kid, small talk in french and sitting in a house for hours is not really what you want to be doing with your time. I guess my uncle saw the strain in my face and he gave me these books filled with cartoon illustrations of a small boy and his stuffed animal tiger that would somehow come to life. I'm pretty sure I almost finished the entire book before it was time to go. My uncle let me keep that book along with another one he had and I fell in love with the comic strip from that moment on.
As I got older, the books took on a new meaning. Mainly because I was a lot older and could understand the humor of each story. But as a small child or a young adult, these books still give me that warm, fuzzy feeling. Happy Birthday Calvin and Hobbes! And thank you Bill Watterson for letting us into your imaginative world :) Although I have to say, I was always bummed out when my stuffed animals never talked back to me...
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Dear Lord
Dear Lord,
This is all I ask in a man:
Available (aka he's not dating anyone)
Lives in the same city as me (for once)
It wouldn't hurt if he could dance salsa...
So why is it the ones I find are either dating someone or they don't live in the same city as me... usually overseas... Is it me? Do I find men that are unavailable because I know nothing will happen? Am I pushing away men? Geez what's wrong with meeeeeeeee?? I'm 23. I've only had one boyfriend and that was in high school. He left me to chase his dreams as a priest... I'm not going to worry about it but it just makes me think... Maybe I really do push men away. I need therapy. Goodnight.
This is all I ask in a man:
Available (aka he's not dating anyone)
Lives in the same city as me (for once)
It wouldn't hurt if he could dance salsa...
So why is it the ones I find are either dating someone or they don't live in the same city as me... usually overseas... Is it me? Do I find men that are unavailable because I know nothing will happen? Am I pushing away men? Geez what's wrong with meeeeeeeee?? I'm 23. I've only had one boyfriend and that was in high school. He left me to chase his dreams as a priest... I'm not going to worry about it but it just makes me think... Maybe I really do push men away. I need therapy. Goodnight.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Happy Birthday!
Anyone who knows me really well knows that my favorite movie of all time is the Sound of Music. Before the movie was released in 1965, two musical geniuses named Richard Rogers and Oscar Hammerstein II (also known as Rogers and Hammerstein) created the music and lyrics to the Broadway musical which made its first debut on this day in 1959. This musical was the last of the fantastic duo and to this day the music and lyrics touch many people around the world, including me. Anytime I hear "The Sound of Music," "Edelweiss," or "Something Good" I choke up. These songs have a deep, personal meaning for me as for many other people. So I would just like to say, Happy Birthday Sound of Music :) You mean the world to me.
Death of a Legend
Also on this day in 1960, Clark Gable died at the age of 59. His passing came prior to the last film he ever made, "The Misfits" which also starred Marilyn Monroe. Eerily, this was also the last picture Marilyn starred in before her passing. The first time I ever saw Clark Gable was in "It Happened One Night." It is easily one of my most treasured and beloved movies. He always had such an air about him... so handsome and so dapper... ::sigh::
I highly recommend anyone who loves movies to watch this. This one movie is what began my obsession for older, classic films. Many times on television shows or in modern day films you'll see references to this movie. It truly is a classic. Not to mention, Claudette Colbert is beautiful as always :)
Monday, November 15, 2010
A Spectacular Artist
For about two years now, I have been obsessing over this amazing artist: Fabian Perez. His work consists of people, mainly women from what I see. But he always paints them in such a beautiful light that sets a certain mood. The way he makes the clothes cling to bodies makes the women seem so feminine and the way he addresses the light on a man's face along with his cigarette smoke is so appealing. He really celebrates woman and man. Have a look for yourself. Here are some of my favorite paintings:
Sunday, November 14, 2010
UK Living
At the moment, I am talking to a friend of mine from the UK. He's in China at the moment working but I told him of my idea of one day living in the UK (once I have money and a life put together securely). I've never seen myself as someone who can just settle in one city. So I started looking at different cities and villages in the UK. One place really caught my eye: Cambridge. Just seeing this one picture made me want to explore this city even more. Of course, my friend who is from the UK told me there are too many bicycles and he suggested that I look at villages in Norfolk, mainly Norfolk Broads. The pictures were beautiful. It looks so remote and quaint. I could see myself in a small cottage there, cooking, drinking wine, reading in a nice bubble bath every night (alone or accompanied), sitting outside and watching the sky change colors, taking a boat ride at sunset. Case in point: once I make money and have settled down the best way I know how, I will buy myself a small vacation home in an area like this in the UK.
The great thing about the UK is they speak english with beautiful accents and it's closer to France, Spain and Italy than anywhere in the US (obviously). After backpacking twice, I have come to love the metro system. It is so easy to pick up your bags and just hop a train to anywhere in Europe. Just thinking about all this gets me so excited! Here are some pictures I found online of Norfolk. There seem to be a lot of boats and windmills:
Someone sign me up please :)
It's a Beautiful Day
Shit. I have not written in forever... So I'll start again :) I would just like to say on this soggy, cloudy afternoon that I cannot stop smiling inside and out. Lately I've been reading a lot about spirituality and happiness and I am doing things that make me feel really good inside. Isn't that our objective in life? To find a pure state of happiness and keep it? Sure we have those moments of grieving or anger but it's up to us to go through it and come back out a happy person... if that's what we want which I'm sure it is.
I used to get to uptight about the most unimportant things... "so and so doesn't like me," "oh God... I look like a beached whale," "I'm coming back to an empty home again," "I have no one who cares about me." These thoughts are so ridiculous looking back at them. Who cares if a guy doesn't like me!? I live in a small city and there are thousands of men all over the world. Maybe my guy isn't in this city so I can be patient! So what if I gain a couple pounds once in awhile... I can work it off dancing salsa with my friends! And even though I'm coming to an empty home, it doesn't mean my life is empty. I do have wonderful friends and parents who love me and they care about me. I should pick up the phone and talk to them. Thoughts can always be turned around but sometimes I guess you have to find that strength to turn them. Not only that, but I have really learned in these last couple months to look around and be grateful. Those "problems" are nothing compared to other people in the world. I have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, food in the fridge, I can turn up the heat in my apartment when it gets too cold... I am so lucky. My parents are alive and well and I know if something were to happen to me I would have friends to make sure I was doing alright.
Life is beautiful. And on this soggy, cloudy afternoon all I see is sunshine pouring through my windows.
I used to get to uptight about the most unimportant things... "so and so doesn't like me," "oh God... I look like a beached whale," "I'm coming back to an empty home again," "I have no one who cares about me." These thoughts are so ridiculous looking back at them. Who cares if a guy doesn't like me!? I live in a small city and there are thousands of men all over the world. Maybe my guy isn't in this city so I can be patient! So what if I gain a couple pounds once in awhile... I can work it off dancing salsa with my friends! And even though I'm coming to an empty home, it doesn't mean my life is empty. I do have wonderful friends and parents who love me and they care about me. I should pick up the phone and talk to them. Thoughts can always be turned around but sometimes I guess you have to find that strength to turn them. Not only that, but I have really learned in these last couple months to look around and be grateful. Those "problems" are nothing compared to other people in the world. I have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, food in the fridge, I can turn up the heat in my apartment when it gets too cold... I am so lucky. My parents are alive and well and I know if something were to happen to me I would have friends to make sure I was doing alright.
Life is beautiful. And on this soggy, cloudy afternoon all I see is sunshine pouring through my windows.
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