Home Sweet Home

Just got into Austin. I haven't written anything over Thanksgiving break probably because I've been sitting on my ass watching Weeds on Netflix. I'm addicted. Something crazy always happens every episode. And even though I reeeeaaaally want to watch another episode, I need to write a paper for class. This will probably take me all morning but I'm such a pro at procrastinating. I got this. I think I'm even more fueled up to write or do something now since my dad and I got into an argument (what's new). I will kick this paper's ass. Goodnight world

All I Can Say Is...

Wow. I am one lucky girl. I don't want to say anything because I'm afraid I'll jinx a good thing but really... I got lucky.

Smiling From Ear to Beyond

What a great feeling to make someone happy and have them make you happy in return. Now that the nerves and butterflies are gone, I think my waiting might finally be over... Let's hope so. I caught a good one :)

To E

Before I go to bed tonight, I just want to write a little message to someone very special to me.

I love you.
You are beautiful.
Men are pigs.
You are beautiful.
Always take it one second after another because once you know it, a minute has passed.
Don't strive for right or wrong,
All your wrongs will turn into a right.
I love you.
Don't let hurt consume you.
There's a phone next to you with my number in it.
God you're beautiful.
You're light shines through that beautiful smile.
Don't put yourself down.
Because I love you.
God loves you.
The Universe loves you.

If you weren't here in my life, I would have a gaping hole. When you wake up and before you go to bed, think of all the love you have going your way. You truly are a special and wonderful human being. I love you E.

15 Things

15 Things I Hope to Do in the Next 5 Years:

1. Land a role in a movie
2. Dance tango in Argentina
3. Zip-line in Costa Rica
4. Get plans running for a 1950s themed restaurant
5. Visit Australia and see a koala
6. Learn to sew
7. Read more plays
8. Sit and watch the sun set
9. Go scuba diving
10. Enjoy a night at the symphony
11. Go on a hot-air balloon ride
12. Go camping for a week
13. Visit Egypt and see the pyramids
14. Swim with dolphins
15. Go on a road trip through the South

There are probably more things I want to do but for now this is a satisfying list :)

Another Happy Birthday

As my friend pointed out to me today, on this day in 1985 the first Calvin and Hobbes comic strip was published. I remember the first time seeing these strips of comedic genius. I was in Paris with my mom visiting her brother and I was deathly bored. As a small kid, small talk in french and sitting in a house for hours is not really what you want to be doing with your time. I guess my uncle saw the strain in my face and he gave me these books filled with cartoon illustrations of a small boy and his stuffed animal tiger that would somehow come to life. I'm pretty sure I almost finished the entire book before it was time to go. My uncle let me keep that book along with another one he had and I fell in love with the comic strip from that moment on.

As I got older, the books took on a new meaning. Mainly because I was a lot older and could understand the humor of each story. But as a small child or a young adult, these books still give me that warm, fuzzy feeling. Happy Birthday Calvin and Hobbes! And thank you Bill Watterson for letting us into your imaginative world :) Although I have to say, I was always bummed out when my stuffed animals never talked back to me...

Dear Lord

Dear Lord,
This is all I ask in a man:
Available (aka he's not dating anyone)
Lives in the same city as me (for once)

It wouldn't hurt if he could dance salsa...

So why is it the ones I find are either dating someone or they don't live in the same city as me... usually overseas... Is it me? Do I find men that are unavailable because I know nothing will happen? Am I pushing away men? Geez what's wrong with meeeeeeeee?? I'm 23. I've only had one boyfriend and that was in high school. He left me to chase his dreams as a priest... I'm not going to worry about it but it just makes me think... Maybe I really do push men away. I need therapy. Goodnight.

Happy Birthday!

Anyone who knows me really well knows that my favorite movie of all time is the Sound of Music. Before the movie was released in 1965, two musical geniuses named Richard Rogers and Oscar Hammerstein II (also known as Rogers and Hammerstein) created the music and lyrics to the Broadway musical which made its first debut on this day in 1959. This musical was the last of the fantastic duo and to this day the music and lyrics touch many people around the world, including me. Anytime I hear "The Sound of Music," "Edelweiss," or "Something Good" I choke up. These songs have a deep, personal meaning for me as for many other people. So I would just like to say, Happy Birthday Sound of Music :) You mean the world to me.

Death of a Legend

Also on this day in 1960, Clark Gable died at the age of 59. His passing came prior to the last film he ever made, "The Misfits" which also starred Marilyn Monroe. Eerily, this was also the last picture Marilyn starred in before her passing. The first time I ever saw Clark Gable was in "It Happened One Night." It is easily one of my most treasured and beloved movies. He always had such an air about him... so handsome and so dapper... ::sigh::



I highly recommend anyone who loves movies to watch this. This one movie is what began my obsession for older, classic films. Many times on television shows or in modern day films you'll see references to this movie. It truly is a classic. Not to mention, Claudette Colbert is beautiful as always :)

A Spectacular Artist

For about two years now, I have been obsessing over this amazing artist: Fabian Perez. His work consists of people, mainly women from what I see. But he always paints them in such a beautiful light that sets a certain mood. The way he makes the clothes cling to bodies makes the women seem so feminine and the way he addresses the light on a man's face along with his cigarette smoke is so appealing. He really celebrates woman and man. Have a look for yourself. Here are some of my favorite paintings:

UK Living

At the moment, I am talking to a friend of mine from the UK. He's in China at the moment working but I told him of my idea of one day living in the UK (once I have money and a life put together securely). I've never seen myself as someone who can just settle in one city. So I started looking at different cities and villages in the UK. One place really caught my eye: Cambridge. Just seeing this one picture made me want to explore this city even more. Of course, my friend who is from the UK told me there are too many bicycles and he suggested that I look at villages in Norfolk, mainly Norfolk Broads. The pictures were beautiful. It looks so remote and quaint. I could see myself in a small cottage there, cooking, drinking wine, reading in a nice bubble bath every night (alone or accompanied), sitting outside and watching the sky change colors, taking a boat ride at sunset. Case in point: once I make money and have settled down the best way I know how, I will buy myself a small vacation home in an area like this in the UK.
The great thing about the UK is they speak english with beautiful accents and it's closer to France, Spain and Italy than anywhere in the US (obviously). After backpacking twice, I have come to love the metro system. It is so easy to pick up your bags and just hop a train to anywhere in Europe. Just thinking about all this gets me so excited! Here are some pictures I found online of Norfolk. There seem to be a lot of boats and windmills:




Someone sign me up please :)

It's a Beautiful Day

Shit. I have not written in forever... So I'll start again :) I would just like to say on this soggy, cloudy afternoon that I cannot stop smiling inside and out. Lately I've been reading a lot about spirituality and happiness and I am doing things that make me feel really good inside. Isn't that our objective in life? To find a pure state of happiness and keep it? Sure we have those moments of grieving or anger but it's up to us to go through it and come back out a happy person... if that's what we want which I'm sure it is.

I used to get to uptight about the most unimportant things... "so and so doesn't like me," "oh God... I look like a beached whale," "I'm coming back to an empty home again," "I have no one who cares about me." These thoughts are so ridiculous looking back at them. Who cares if a guy doesn't like me!? I live in a small city and there are thousands of men all over the world. Maybe my guy isn't in this city so I can be patient! So what if I gain a couple pounds once in awhile... I can work it off dancing salsa with my friends! And even though I'm coming to an empty home, it doesn't mean my life is empty. I do have wonderful friends and parents who love me and they care about me. I should pick up the phone and talk to them. Thoughts can always be turned around but sometimes I guess you have to find that strength to turn them. Not only that, but I have really learned in these last couple months to look around and be grateful. Those "problems" are nothing compared to other people in the world. I have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, food in the fridge, I can turn up the heat in my apartment when it gets too cold... I am so lucky. My parents are alive and well and I know if something were to happen to me I would have friends to make sure I was doing alright.

Life is beautiful. And on this soggy, cloudy afternoon all I see is sunshine pouring through my windows.