It's a Beautiful Day

Shit. I have not written in forever... So I'll start again :) I would just like to say on this soggy, cloudy afternoon that I cannot stop smiling inside and out. Lately I've been reading a lot about spirituality and happiness and I am doing things that make me feel really good inside. Isn't that our objective in life? To find a pure state of happiness and keep it? Sure we have those moments of grieving or anger but it's up to us to go through it and come back out a happy person... if that's what we want which I'm sure it is.

I used to get to uptight about the most unimportant things... "so and so doesn't like me," "oh God... I look like a beached whale," "I'm coming back to an empty home again," "I have no one who cares about me." These thoughts are so ridiculous looking back at them. Who cares if a guy doesn't like me!? I live in a small city and there are thousands of men all over the world. Maybe my guy isn't in this city so I can be patient! So what if I gain a couple pounds once in awhile... I can work it off dancing salsa with my friends! And even though I'm coming to an empty home, it doesn't mean my life is empty. I do have wonderful friends and parents who love me and they care about me. I should pick up the phone and talk to them. Thoughts can always be turned around but sometimes I guess you have to find that strength to turn them. Not only that, but I have really learned in these last couple months to look around and be grateful. Those "problems" are nothing compared to other people in the world. I have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, food in the fridge, I can turn up the heat in my apartment when it gets too cold... I am so lucky. My parents are alive and well and I know if something were to happen to me I would have friends to make sure I was doing alright.

Life is beautiful. And on this soggy, cloudy afternoon all I see is sunshine pouring through my windows.