As I wrote back in November, I thought I found a guy that was great. We saw each other every day and were always joined at the hip in the spare times we had available outside of work or classes, in my case. I brought it up at the very beginning that I travel a lot and that this has always been a problem with the guys I date. His response, "No biggie. We'll see what happens when we get there." Long story short, it got there. He started retreating and broke it off with me.
Come to find out he met another girl while I was gone. I found this out for myself and had a feeling this was the real reason he broke up with me, not because of distance. People can work through busy schedules and I thought he was one of them. After taking him off of facebook (yes this sounds so high school but it's our society today) I thought I would randomly see if I could check up on his profile before I went to bed. Low and behold... a new girlfriend. I know we weren't together for too long but I haven't been with someone seriously in 4 years, so for me I wanted it to work. This was a guy I really fell for and wanted to commit to. It sucks to think that feeling is reciprocated but can so easily be thrown away.
It's times like this that I don't feel good enough and then I just have to slap myself in the face and tell myself to stop talking nonsense. But how do you stop the feeling of numbness?
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose."
-Henry Ward Beecher
"The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder."
-Virginia Woolf
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