Austin is Magic

So I got rid of facebook to focus more on myself. With that, I've been looking at things to do in Austin because I feel like even though I've lived here for almost five years, I still haven't seen anything of the city.

Low and behold, I found my website. Now I'm making it a goal that when this show is over at the theatre, I will go to this website everyday and pick a place to go to. I want to experience something new everyday! And here in Austin, you can do that.

www.livingsocial.com

Check out what's around your city!

Not Feeling It

Something weird happened today... The day started off at theatre rehearsal where I just felt overwhelmingly sad. Then I got home and was okay for a bit and once the night hit I started to cry for no reason. I don't know why I'm feeling like this. Maybe it's because I have been so locked up in my house more than I'm used to. Maybe being unsocial makes me sad. But then I think about it, and I haven't been indoors ALL the time. I've seen a couple friends here and there. There has to be something else. Maybe if I just go to bed now I'll wake up to a bright, cheery morning.

It's Almost Here

Graduation is in three months and I can almost taste it. I was talking to a friend of mine last night and I said "What am I going to do when I graduate?" I'm so used to having the summer off and then getting ready to go back to class in the fall. Now, I don't have to worry about that. Instead, I have to worry about what I'm going to do with my life! I'm so excited but so nervous.

I've made the decision to stay in Austin. I think there's more opportunity for me in film here rather than Los Angeles. I want to be a big fish in a small pond. I know staying here will give me good experience and help build up my resume.

Another thing to look forward to: My girl Emily is moving to Austin to work in film as well. We're going to live together which I'm so stoked for. It'll be good to have someone there who wants to do exactly the same thing as me. I really hope we can help each other succeed.

From Ten to One

Funny how I can be so entirely happy one moment and then sobbing like a widow the next. Here I am, enjoying the snow by myself, running around the empty streets like a child, catching snowflakes on my tongue. I felt so amazing! I made snow balls and threw them in the air and at columns just to see them break. People probably thought I was a lunatic, seeing a girl throwing snow and jumping around in circles looking at the footsteps she left behind her, running from one side of the apartment complex to the other side. But I didn't care. It was such a simple joy that I wanted to take it all in.

Then I finished watching a movie and before I wanted to head to bed I made the dumb decision of looking at the ex's profile and he had changed his picture to him and his new girlfriend. It was one of those photo booth pictures with the multiple pictures on a roll. Seeing him smile that same smile when he was with me and kissing her just broke my heart. I miss him so much and now I'm becoming that girl I don't want to be. A pathetic, sobbing girl who feels she'll never be good enough. What a shame it is to go from such a high to such a low. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm going to leave the blinds open so I can fall asleep to the vision of snow. Maybe it will bring back some good spirit.