Funny how I can be so entirely happy one moment and then sobbing like a widow the next. Here I am, enjoying the snow by myself, running around the empty streets like a child, catching snowflakes on my tongue. I felt so amazing! I made snow balls and threw them in the air and at columns just to see them break. People probably thought I was a lunatic, seeing a girl throwing snow and jumping around in circles looking at the footsteps she left behind her, running from one side of the apartment complex to the other side. But I didn't care. It was such a simple joy that I wanted to take it all in.
Then I finished watching a movie and before I wanted to head to bed I made the dumb decision of looking at the ex's profile and he had changed his picture to him and his new girlfriend. It was one of those photo booth pictures with the multiple pictures on a roll. Seeing him smile that same smile when he was with me and kissing her just broke my heart. I miss him so much and now I'm becoming that girl I don't want to be. A pathetic, sobbing girl who feels she'll never be good enough. What a shame it is to go from such a high to such a low. Sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm going to leave the blinds open so I can fall asleep to the vision of snow. Maybe it will bring back some good spirit.
well that's so cool, thats what I do: Run around like a mad man.
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